it kept me from sleeping this morning and being comfortable all day.
still, things are alright.
i got to relax a bit today on campus where i spent far too much money on film and eventually even shot some photos. i came home and ran through what little yellow bird songs alex and i could without tim and rob; for the jason anderson showwhere i will be playing with a full band. then i went to work and felt my throat act up again. i came home to practice with aaron and we worked on this fun new song. and that's the play by play of my day. inject reading about art from the 30's and thinking about a pretty girl and you've got my day down to a T.
on friday night, i got a call from my friend rory who asked my other band to play the last marathon show. i got out of work and played, and was so happy to be part of one of their last performances in rochester. though i only know one guy in the band well enough,
what they stood for meant a lot, and again - i was gracious to be asked to play.
i like being in a band. it's much more fulfilling than being a "one man show". and i must say it gives me much more of a feeling of having a place in the world (as dumb as that sounds) and helps me keep my mind off that which i should keep it off. but that doesn't mean i devalue what i do as my own person in music; if i didn't have the time to get out my own feelings in this medium i'd surely die (or breakdown). and i guess i've been thinking a bit about getting a job post graduation. everyone's talking about them and stressing and i can't even imagine having a "real" job. with out getting that deep too into it i'd like to just live with no worries.
and if you haven't yet, go listen to
jens lekman. everytime i listen to him, or read his postings on his website, i can't help but have a non romantic crush on him (and also in a non sexual way of course). my respect for him is ever-growing, and i always regain any lost hope in my life when i read about how positive he can be sometimes. and i sometimes get the impression he and i are a little similar in thought process (us poor hopeless romantics).
my roommate and i talked about tv, over the internet of course. we only live in two different rooms seperated by a wall and some doors. sometimes i think i should get out of this house; off the internet and go ride my bike (or my new skateboard, thanks to alex). it's just about nice enough to enjoy the night time with out the discomfort of being cold. i don't watch too much tv, but sometimes i think it's a terrible invention. i do spend too much time infront of the computer though. both can get in the way of actually living, if you'll let them do that to you. i can't wait to go out with the intent to actually watch the stars at night. i can't wait to aimlessly ride my bike all over. i can't wait to get lost in the outdoors. i'd go right now if i didn't have this sore throat to get in the way of things.
sorry for the aimless run of topics, but i felt i ought to post tonight, and i'm feeling awfully contemplative(not in a bad way) about everything.
